I’ve often heard it said, “God will never give you more than you can handle”. I believe the opposite to be true. God often gives people much more than they could ever hope to handle on their own. Why? I don’t know but I suspect that it is to remind us of our powerlessness in many instances and to encourage us to seek help from others or even God Himself.
He tried to disguise how tired and ill he was, how depressing the thought of death was to him and how he spent his days and nights thinking up schemes of living beyond what the prognosis said. His hope, if not his heart, would find a way.