To me, in “its” most simple and basic form, God is Meaning. I have an inalienable sense that life, the universe and everything actually means something, objectively. I cannot imagine meaninglessness any more than I can imagine nothingness. This may be some sort of intellectual failure on my part but I suspect most people share this same lack of imagination. Where I may differ is that I choose to call this ultimate objective Meaning, “God”. For me, at least, without “Meaning” in this sense, subjective “meaning” is meaningless. Ya know what I mean?
When we appear to be “more a loser than a victor” on the Path it is easy to lose sight of the fact that we are growing spiritually.