Are you a leaf in the wind, having no control over your own actions? To be fair, if you are going to blame others for your mistakes, you ought to give them at least as much credit for your successes. While it may be true that no man is an island, in the end, you are ultimately responsible for every decision you make. (Galatians 6:5) Unless you are being physically controlled, every voluntary action is preceded by a decision. No one can make you do anything without actual force.
We spend so much time trying to put send to death that we don't spend enough time striving to know God deeply, trying to gaze upon the wonder of Jesus Christ and have that transform our affections to the point where our love and hope are steadfastly on Christ.