Are you a leaf in the wind, having no control over your own actions? To be fair, if you are going to blame others for your mistakes, you ought to give them at least as much credit for your successes. While it may be true that no man is an island, in the end, you are ultimately responsible for every decision you make. (Galatians 6:5) Unless you are being physically controlled, every voluntary action is preceded by a decision. No one can make you do anything without actual force.
Even the ordinary business of cleaning house seemed somehow to have become sacramental.